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October 2005
A WONDER HAPPEND
All alone in my room
I am too afraid to go to sleep
my fear is not ungrounded
I hear he's coming!
He opens the door and pulls me up
I do exactly what he wants
I don't think to hesitate
and do all that he wants
He puts me in his car
we are driving to the woods
there they are, I don't know how many
the feast has begun
They are singing, I am naked
They are black clothed
I know I have to go
I can't handle this
I am flying, not in my body
I am flying and she knows what they do to her
I want far away, not going back anymore
and fly away
I wake up, the stone is cold
I am here, not flying anymore
My hands and feet are tied
I am a sacrifice from now on
A wonder happens a wonder moved
They couldn't kill me, not any more
I have a Father, who cares for me
He wants to help me and set me free
MJ vd Steeg
Girl, I miss you
You were just a few years old
You knew what they did to you
So afraid, so alone
I wish I could have saved you!
I am so sorry, I did nothing
Now you are not here anymore
Sacrificed and been eaten
Oh it is horrible
I just thinking every day
If I had done something
Maybe they would take me and not you
Then you would be here!
MJ vd Steeg
They broke me
Broken by disaster, broken by tears
Broken by hands which had to care
Raped by power and control
Bitter by cold
Broken by strong hands
Broken when I was just a child
Be formed, but now for black clothed people
Be temped for ever
Lonely, all alone, here in a corner
Be taken by strong hands
Trown down on a cold rock
Painted with blood
With chains tight
With to many upon me
I couldn't win from them
A unfair battle
The battle I couldn't win
I have now with myself
Every day a step closer
To the real me, to get whole
Long roads, dark times
Is there a shining light?
This is too heavy, I can't take it
Than there is Grace with her Eagleschoir
You, you where not supposed to live
But now you are the happiest child
My little girl, up in heaven
You're singing every day for me
Little girl, you fought the battle
But you knew in heaven it's great
Better times were in front of you
Will you be there for me now?
MJ vd Steeg
APRIL, 2006
Let His love shine
Oh heart of mine
Dream of the birds and the sunshine
Tomorrow the day begins again for you
So let His love, shine on you
MJ van der Steeg | 
